baby!!!

I was reluctant to put that information here , but now I passed the critica phase ....

I'M PREGNANT!!

 my little one at 12 weeks ....

let's wait

1 week = that's what I have to wait for an important answer.

I also have to wait until january (!!!! it's next year !!!!) to restart my NP program.

and .... I HATE WAITING

source http://media.giphy.com/media/UJR3QgkMnm7tu/giphy.gif

I know that I should be more patient, but I was never good with intertemporal choices! Between a smaller price right now or a greater outcome later, sometimes I choose the **ici et maintenant** option. Waiting is an art ... lol! 

While I'm waiting (and this really bores me), I found something interesting = what are the top things that we hate to wait for ( here to the text )

1. Being on hold (phone)
Yes. I hate that too. But it's not my first choice

2. Replacement bank card
really ? this one doesn't bores me so much ...

3. Deliveries
neither this one ....

4. Delayed flights
oh, this is top-5 for sure! annoying stuff, waiting and waiting, spending those precious hours inside a boring airport (any other place is better than a boring airport!)

5. Traffic jams
I'm from SP and the infernal-eternal traffic jam was one of the reasons to *leave* SP! top-5 for sure.

6. Repair man
hun, not really

7. To be seen by doctor
well, I'm a nurse so probably there's a *biais* on my way to see this waiting period. It's pretty boring but I can understand (not all the time, but mostly)

8. Bus running late
yes, the same *airplane logic*

9. Friends showing up late to social engagements
really? what about the bride? 

10. The tube
well, it's boring but it's ok. Except when we have to wait for hours and hours ...


C'mon people, this day-by-day stuff, I can handle it! 

My **waiting anxiety** is related to my profession!! Being a clinician nurse is great, but I'm on my way to become a nurse practitioner and this *waiting time* really sucks.

So, I still have 48 working days to restart my NP program, and counting ...

Meanwhile, I have to (try to) enjoy every day as a magic opportunity to improve myself (self-motivation stuff) Fall, I'm ready for you. 

life goes on ...

I'm so stressed these days, I cry at anything.

It's Ok to be emotional some of the time. I put in 40 hours a week studying and seeing patients and then another 10-15h a week at home catching up my notes and working on my Master's essay.

Those last 5 months ... wow! I learned A LOT but I'm probably burned-out, in a fortunate manner (I don't know how!) without sleeping problems! I'm doing some physical activity and I try to have at least *half* week-end every week. It's an insane schedule!

The thought of seeing patients completely on my own ... it's very hard! Made me a little (not, a LOT!) jittery! I still have 4 weeks (still? OMG, 4 weeks? ALREADY??). I really want to improve my clinical skills. I'm on my way but **too slow** according to my supervisor. 

and ... When I know if I passed? ONLY at JULY, 9th! Unbelievable!

Last week I was freaking out, every day was a nightmare ...  I confess, I'm not 100% confident, I have good and bad days, sometimes I fell very smart, sometimes very stupid ...

made her a little jittery

made her a little jittery

the thought of seeing patients completely on her own made her a little jittery - See more at: http://scienceofcaring.ucsf.edu/future-nursing/are-residencies-future-nurse-practitioner-training#sthash.KgcDsR1D.dpuf

the thought of seeing patients completely on her own made her a little jittery - See more at: http://scienceofcaring.ucsf.edu/future-nursing/are-residencies-future-nurse-practitioner-training#sthash.KgcDsR1D.dpuf

BUT 

life goes on and what is the best medicine for bad moments ? A TRIP!!


So, I'm going on a cruise!!

source : http://gaia.adage.com/images/bin/image/x-large/2-18-13-carnival.jpg

Yeah, baby!

Sun, sea, beaches, good food, a lot of fun ... a relaxing week after this crazy period! Either to celebrate or to recompose myself and be ready for the next battle (work on September or doing a complementary 10-weeks NP internship).


I have 4 weeks, what can I do?
Work hard.
Improve my skills.
Show them what I'm capable of!

source http://branham.org/content/articles/2011/20110915_PreparingForBattle/PreparingForBattle.jpg

And prepare my trip! (oh, I SOOOOO need this!)