dimanche 8 juin 2014

life goes on ...

I'm so stressed these days, I cry at anything.
It's Ok to be emotional some of the time. I put in 40 hours a week studying and seeing patients and then another 10-15h a week at home catching up my notes and working on my Master's essay.
Those last 5 months ... wow! I learned A LOT but I'm probably burned-out, in a fortunate manner (I don't know how!) without sleeping problems! I'm doing some physical activity and I try to have at least *half* week-end every week. It's an insane schedule!
The thought of seeing patients completely on my own ... it's very hard! Made me a little (not, a LOT!) jittery! I still have 4 weeks (still? OMG, 4 weeks? ALREADY??). I really want to improve my clinical skills. I'm on my way but **too slow** according to my supervisor. 

and ... When I know if I passed? ONLY at JULY, 9th! Unbelievable!

Last week I was freaking out, every day was a nightmare ...  I confess, I'm not 100% confident, I have good and bad days, sometimes I fell very smart, sometimes very stupid ...
made her a little jittery
made her a little jittery

the thought of seeing patients completely on her own made her a little jittery - See more at: http://scienceofcaring.ucsf.edu/future-nursing/are-residencies-future-nurse-practitioner-training#sthash.KgcDsR1D.dpuf
the thought of seeing patients completely on her own made her a little jittery - See more at: http://scienceofcaring.ucsf.edu/future-nursing/are-residencies-future-nurse-practitioner-training#sthash.KgcDsR1D.dpuf
BUT 
life goes on and what is the best medicine for bad moments ? A TRIP!!


So, I'm going on a cruise!!
source : http://gaia.adage.com/images/bin/image/x-large/2-18-13-carnival.jpg

Yeah, baby!

Sun, sea, beaches, good food, a lot of fun ... a relaxing week after this crazy period! Either to celebrate or to recompose myself and be ready for the next battle (work on September or doing a complementary 10-weeks NP internship).


I have 4 weeks, what can I do?
Work hard.
Improve my skills.
Show them what I'm capable of!

source http://branham.org/content/articles/2011/20110915_PreparingForBattle/PreparingForBattle.jpg


And prepare my trip! (oh, I SOOOOO need this!)




6 commentaires:

  1. Sim, vc merece uns bons momentos de relax. Mesmo sendo de batalhas que se vive a vida, tbm temos que nos permitir recarregar as armas para dars eguencia nas conquistas...
    Bjss

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    1. um dia de cada vez, né? Estava me estressando por antecipaçao. Agora curto cada dia como aprendizado e se nao passar ... bem, dai eu volto em setembro e faço 10 semanas de novo, cabeça erguida. desistir, jamais.

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  2. I'm happy for you progress, in despite of all the hard moments.
    and above all, vey happy for the cruiseeeeeerr!
    Pictures, pictures! :D

    xoxo
    Erika
    www.leslapins.wordpress.com

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  3. For sure taking a time off is the best thing to rest a busy mind!!! Wish you the best and that you have a nice trip

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